Archive for October, 2008

Deep Cold

Monday, October 27th, 2008

Cold. Cold and want warm. Deep down warmth. Not this outer body warmth because my core is frozen. Frozen. Frozen, but I can still move. But its slow. Why did I leave the warmth of Portland? Following…Following this guy here wasn’t good. All the promises of place to live – lies. Lies. Lies is part of life. Most lies I can live with. Most lies that don’t effect the body. These lies, the lies that harm the body or shatter the mind are too much. They’re too much now. Now I just want warmth. If not in body then in mind. The mind warm I miss. I miss and felt last in Portland. Not here. Nyc feels cold. Cold deep. Down deep.